There’s something wrong with my brain today

The lightbulb’s getting dim

There’s a meltdown in your eye

If you can judge a Wiseman

By the way he looks outside

Then mister you’re a better man than I



I don’t usually get the holiday blues. I’m not sure why they are kicking in this year. I rarely celebrate Christmas or the Winter Solstice. I don’t often have holiday parties or extravagant work parties.

If I seem off to you, I’m sorry in advance. I seem to be having a blue Xmas.




I am so tired these days. It seems that no matter how much I sleep, I wake up exhausted. Getting out of bed almost requires a crane.

I have an appointment on Monday. I’m guessing that my meds just aren’t working as well.

My brain has two functions these days: hyper drive and fog city. Either my brain is in overdrive thinking about everything while accomplishing nothing, or I feel like my brain is just done for the day.

I need an energy boost that doesn’t come from coffee or espresso. Maybe a brain injection.

Sadly, as I’ve mentioned before, the one thing that usually helps is a glass or two of wine or mimosas. 😞

depression, Motivation, Sleep, Uncategorized


I don’t have the energy that I used to. It’s not because I’m older, although I’m sure that plays a part. It’s not because I’m lazy. I am just exhausted. I think the medication is making me tired, as well as the depression itself.

This frustrates me because as I sit in my new(ish) job, I am gaining weight. I want to join a gym to knock off at least a few of the pounds, but I need to save my energy for more important things like grocery shopping, cooking and the like.

My doctor put me on yet another medication. This should kick-start the other medication into controlling my depression better. We’ll see I guess. So far it has helped my focus, but not my energy level. Every three to four hours I start yawning considerably and I feel like I could fall asleep standing up. I actually fell asleep on the bus home, which I do not like doing.

Caffeine helps, but too much puts me to sleep as well. That is one of the weird quirks with my body. I have never heard of anyone that gets sleepy from too much caffeine. Maybe I overdid it when I was younger and trying to finish one more level on whatever game it was that I was playing, keeping myself up all night with Jolt cola.

Who knows. I know that I am tired.