You know I love my one word headlines, but I am a little needy tonight.

Dear reader. I am sorry that you met me. I have a curse that is running rampant through my body and my life. You, I fear, are next.

I need to give you some lyrics before I get too serious. I mean, I’m not a monster.

Hey, I was doing just fine before I met you
I drink too much and that’s an issue, but I’m okay
Hey, you tell your friends it was nice to meet them
But I hope I never see them again

I know it breaks your heart
Moved to the city in a broke-down car…

I know that this song is meant to be fun, but it is true. I was fine before I met you. All of you. Any of you. I was broken then and I am broken now. Knowing you hasn’t change anything

Now, I hear you. Take a breath. I am not saying you haven’t been an amazing part of my life. We have fun. We have love. We have all of those great feelings that normal people are supposed to have. But. One thing. Just a little bitty thing.

Do you know where I am going?

I am tired. I am so tired. I love you. I love my people. But, I’m tired. I am not able to take the strain of everybody’s life and love and hell. I am a finite being that needs to rest and recover from you and yours.

What’s in your head? There is tiredness and distress in mine. I love some people, but right now, death becomes me.